So this is a slightly different blog than usual. I wrote a piece that I sent in to Cosmopolitan magazine and thought I’d share it with you guys! I’ve also made a new video so please check that out and subscribe to my channel!
Confessions of a Student Shopaholic
It always starts off with something small, a bargain that can’t be left. Half price? I must buy it for the saving. Buy one get one free? Well it would be silly not to buy it if I can get freebies. Long term investment? It may come in useful one day. These are the things that go through my head daily. Although it started off with the odd cheap thing here and there, it has developed into an addiction I can’t control.
From a young age, I always had to work for my money. I was never bought anything extravagant, always taught to buy second hand or items in the sale. It was good advice and for many years I didn’t spend much money. My family respected that I could save up my pocket money for over a year to buy myself a keyboard when I was learning piano. I never wanted to buy things for myself. I would much rather buy presents for other people.
In recent years, this has all changed. I find myself lying to my friends and family about how much money I’ve spent, or hiding new clothes and shoes I’ve bought. I know in my heart that I have a problem but it’s not an easy one to fix. Shopping makes me happy. Not much else in life makes me happy so I have to get it from somewhere. The main cause of my shopping addiction is my depression. When I feel down, I turn to my best friend: the internet. You can buy any amount of things on the internet and for reasonable prices. Reasonable until you end up buying heaps of rubbish that you don’t need or even really want but you need it in the moment you click ‘commit to buy’. Being a student, I’m limited on funds as it is. I think one of the biggest mistakes I made was getting an over-draft. It makes me think I have a lot more money than I actually do, and I spend half my life deep into it.
Shoes. Anyone who knows me knows how much I adore shoes. I have about 70 pairs now, most of which I never wear. I see them as a thing of beauty; art if you will. If there’s ever a shoe sale on, I’m there. The higher the better despite not being very good at walking in them. I dread to think the amount of money I’ve spent on shoes in the last few years. I could have learnt how to drive by now, or gone on holiday.
Makeup is also a weak spot for me. I did want to become a makeup artist so I stocked up on lots of products. Then I decided to go into journalism but I kept finding myself buying more and more makeup. The thing is, I don’t often wear makeup, I just like to have options when I do decide to wear it. It has come in useful recently as I’ve started this blog so I have a lot of products to review already, but having a whole drawer crammed with products I’ve only used once or twice is even silly in my eyes.
Having the latest technology never used to bother me. I was fine having a rubbish phone for a number of years, and a laptop that was held together with tape. Now I find that I own a whole heap of Apple products, a DSLR (my latest purchase), cases to protect them all and not to mention all of my old phones and cameras that I can’t bear to get rid of. In my head I think I need them all. I think that they will all come in useful someday. I know that this is completely idiotic and would be much better if I were to sell them or donate them to charity.
I think the biggest step is admitting I have a problem. Now I’ve realised it, I can find someway to sort my life out. I need to budget more, think more, and find other ways to be happy. This is an expensive way to put a smile on my face. I’ve opened up to close friends and they are going to help me best they can to stop me impulse buying some new shoes or a gadget. They’ve tried to help me before and I didn’t want their help. I just wanted to buy things. Now I realise that I need all the help I can get. I don’t want a life of debt, no friends but a house full of useless things I never use. As I tell myself every night, ‘tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life, so stop spending and start living’.
So I hope you guys enjoyed this different kind of blog. Let me know in the comments for any suggestions of other blog topics/videos.
Peace and love…